Do you have brain damage too? Me three. A slow talker says, “Where are the bodegas? No one can even think revolt. In Brooklyn you can go to a bodega and get a Snapple.” Jen Hofer rides her bike in LA. “It reminds me of Paul Hession’s attitude towards his drums and his cymbals.” “A psycho-social analysis, in other words. What you'd need if you’re talking about zombie films.” When we hear, “I’m moving to Manhattan after I squeeze out my degree,” we ask if they’ve considered Newark. Like Adorno, The Affair understands that “the objective structures of capitalist society induce … doubts regarding the ultimate reality of certain subjective phenomena” (Adorno, Current of Music, p.407), so that playing records, attending gigs and arguing about music aren't some “deviation” from a struggle conceived in Stalinist, neo-Kantian terms as some sort of moral duty, but the very lifeblood of vital resistance to capitalist inertia. But The Affair also knows that if music becomes a specialist pursuit deprived of contact with left theory and politics, it becomes a weak-kneed defence of the laissez-faire status quo. He’s no Coil fan, after all. In this room there is always a mirror in which your face appears to be moving. Your face is not necessarily moving. This can be a disconcerting room. Do I somatize everything or is there an organic source? On the glass-topped table next to me: the journal of Alix Roubaud and a gun. I haven’t touched the gun. I haven't read the book. I look at thathipsterporn.tumblr.com. There are babes and dudes all over it and then a picture of Kobe Bryant in a mist of confetti, a giant 24 facing the camera. I thought about a lot of stuff, but all I'm really in a position to do right now is smoke kush. I’d like to live in that suburban mall with the 4 alive people in Dawn of the Dead. That was another time. Today I'm overdosing on Nicorette. I can’t do anything else so I pick up a book next to me with the title Sex and Rockets about a guy who dropped out of school to build explosives in Pasadena and invoke a siren named Cameron through a magickal process. The rice in the Petri dish is about to pop. “I know not where I was born, save that the castle was infinitely old and infinitely horrible.” By book, I mean something like environment. “Ideas are weak.” Chantale Lavigne was cooked to death at a personal development seminar. Drew Gardner had a cold. Saturday morning the poets called in search of the blood brain barrier. They learned that one poet had made out with another poet who had made out with Allen Ginsberg. Chuck gave whale advice. Oh my god! I just realized there is a UNICORN on the cover of my passport. Who appointed Wittgenstein Jr? Whoa, Magic Hat! I didn’t expect fruity. What is this flavor? A little lavender and pumpkin pie, a smidgen of doughnut, or is that musk? A hint of buttered popcorn vanilla peppermint cheese pizza roasting meat cinnamon buns strawberry parsley green apple rose Oriental spice baby powder chocolate pink grapefruit cranberry. Just a hint. Interesting. Let me try another one. That first bottle reminded me of the time I went horse-dancing in Mexico. I found a baby wolf in the woods and I trained him with honey mustard pretzels to do my bidding. Gout! Gout! “James, I Cannot Even Begin to Imagine Who Threw a Bag of Shit into Your Dishwasher.” The skatole churns in the bowel of Cinderella even when she dreams a history with the prince, the solemn kiss, the spit swap that travels the esophagus to introduce another species to them both. How much are you asking for the histories? The ones that are over on that table by the hose reel. Jesus said, “Let the least of you dinosaurs come unto me. I’ve got the only ball. It’s my mother scratching party now.” Fewer fossils per capita. Like a lone blue reindeer in JANUARY. One recalls the “tabular account of the specimens” found in the “Artesian well at the Passaic Rolling Mill, Paterson.”
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